This rant is dedicated to my lovely littlelippy
I am starting to hate the TV. Honestly. I see beautiful women like Queen Latifah advertising for fucking weight loss programs and I want to bite their faces. While I more or less support Queen Latfah's message (that is, to get healthier), it's obvious that it's not why she's doing it. WW threw tons of money at her an dnow she's their whore, just like Kirsty Alley.
Kirsty Alley actually wanted to FIGHT the stereotype that only chubby men, and not chubby women, could succeed in Hollywood. She created and starred in Fat Actress, which was actually pretty good, but then she abandoned it all, probably because she wasn't liking what the tabloids said about her ankles.
I mean, give me a break. I
know why I am fat. I like to eat rich and junky foods, mostly. The deep issue, as well, is, if you dig deep enough, I'm afraid to become hungry.DRAMATIC PAST RECALL ALERT!
When I was 13, my step-dad left us in debt, and so we were...kinda poor. Not enough to worry about STARVING or anything. Mom was always good to us, and we ALWAYS had three good and healthy meals, and we NEVER were hungry. But I worried about it. Alot.
That's one factor.
The other factor was that when I was 17, I COULDN't eat for some reason. My stomach simply rejected everything I ate. All I could injest was liquids, and I got really skinny really fast. This was also the year I attacked my ankles and went on meds. It eventually got better and I could eat again, but it stuck in my head for a long time.
But both situations scared the shit out of me, and as soon as I got a job, I started to feed myself, and I made sure I didn't get hungry. I eat big portions, and if I feel even the slightest hungry, I get really uncomfortable and I eat. So THAT is why I am fat. IT'S BECAUSE I AM MENTAL.END OF DRAMATIC PAST RECALL
Hearing people say to me that I'm not a real woman because I don't have a smaller body, or that I should stop eating McDonalds, or that I'm a fat cow and will die a virgin (OOPS SRY TOO LATE TRY AGAIN LTR) makes me really, really pissed off, and I just want to kick those people in the face.
I don't blame ANYONE but myself for being fat. But I do blame people's stupidity on society. It's like, fuck off. A boy with extra weight is cuddly and cute, but a girl is a fat cow and is letting herself go?
GO FUCK YOURSELVES.
Yeah, sometimes I wish I had a body like Lina Inverse, but I don't. I have a body like ME. As long as I'm not in danger of a heart attack, I don't care. So fuck off.